The Ones We Used to Know

Life is hard. We tumble through space and time, colliding with one another like cosmic bodies set adrift by some ancient explosion. I look through old photographs, and peruse the online profiles of people I used to know, and feel a deep sense of longing, and disconnection, but love still resides in my heart for long lost friends, and I wish I could take part in their lives now. Where, my friends, did we fall away from each other? I often wonder if our brief but passionate, and somewhat violent collisions in this life sent us hurling through space in opposite directions never to collide again, never to meet again. I hope that is not the case. You have impacted my life, helped to shape it, and helped to give it direction. May we all have the privilege of being forged in such a way, and I believe we are. And while friends come and go, while the loves of our lives are cast asunder by the circumstances of cause and effect, my hope is that we gain more than we lose, and learn more than regret. Even in those circumstances where our hearts once beat in unison with some other soul’s and became entwined may we look back happily and without regret, and see true purpose of such things. Our lives are not our own, but inextricably linked and bound to one another, no matter how brief or how passionate our contact with one another is. To all my friends past or present: Thank you for being a part of my life.

Prevent trouble…

Prevent trouble before it arises.
Put things in order before they exist.
The giant pine tree
grows from a tiny sprout.
The journey of a thousand miles
starts beneath your feet.
Rushing into action, you fail.
Trying to grasp things, you lose them.
Forcing a project to completion,
You ruin what was almost ripe.
Therefore the Master takes action
by letting things take their course.
He remains calm
at the end as at the beginning.
He has nothing
thus has nothing to lose.
What he desires is nondesire;
what he learns is to unlearn.
He simply reminds people
of who they have always been.
He cares for nothing but the Tao [the Way].
Thus he can care for all things.

-Lao Tzu

I found this amazing quote in the book “Buddha Is As Buddha Does” by Lama Surya Das. It is exemplar of all I strive for as my purpose. Great quote! Great book.


Courage is facing the unknown and unexpected chaos of life with poise and equanimity, putting your best effort forth with faith that what the future holds for your hopes, and aspirations will be in line with your desires, and knowing that if it isn’t in line with them that there is no other way it can be, and accepting that outcome for what it is: an outcome that can be no other outcome.

Today I go to the dentist to get four more teeth extracted. I have an interview at nine this evening, and I have been looking for a job for 7 months. My fear is that I will get these teeth pulled, and go to my interview tonight, and not get the job because my attitude will be changed by the traumatic experience. I fear that I will not be able to eat because the teeth being pulled are the only ones I have left to chew with, and I have a fear that as soon as all the teeth are gone I will become reclusive because I wont want the world to see me without a denture. My worst fears are becoming realized, but I must be strong and have courage, or what can example can I be to those in fear.

“Courage is contagious. When a brave man takes a stand, the spines of others are often stiffened.”

-Billy Graham

Atonement and Sadness

The trees,
how they sway speaks to me personally of miracles.
Waves of green leafs in perfect motion evokes emotion,
and in the perfect moment I grasp atonement.

Still the lamenting relents, and I wonder if I’m implementing this Dharma Right;
is life a dance, a struggle, a fight? My mind is mildly wild,
but the sadness I feel at times is mightily mighty.

So why is it that I am filled with this sadness inside me? I have no reason,
gratitude is an insight I have not lost, but still I feel tossed in a turbulent sea of synaptic tsunamis,
and maelstroms sinking me to depths of crushing weight.

Expatriate me from this state.

Liberate me, myself.

Lend me a new slate…